I hope you all have a good Christmas.
Not gonna sugarcoat it, I'm completely alone on Christmas this year, I don't have anyone to spend it with. In fact the last few days have been the loneliest days of my life and it's been really hard, I really miss my loved ones.
I really should have waited until around the time Tate was ready to move, I really can't say anything all that great about being here up to this point, it's been nothing but an uphill battle mentally, though on the flip-side I'd have probably been just as bad back home.
I'm not going to ignore you guys though, back in the day when I'd get a message of someone saying I inspire them or something similar to that I'd shrug it off, not that I didn't appreciate it or anything but I'd look at it as them idolizing the Kilplix of youtube, not Austin. If they knew the real me then they wouldn't be saying it, so I'd sort of shrug off all inspirational and complimenting messages.
Now though I really take notice of such messages and appreciate them a lot more, it's good to see that I'm making whatever little differences I may be making while I'm sitting here alone in this apartment.
Truly, thank you guys. Your support and kind words help comfort this lonely heart. I promise this will be the loneliest Christmas of my life, all future ones will be better than this.
Now, what did you all get for Christmas?